I’m alone without you
Though not more than I am with you
I want you to hold me close
But only push you away
You don’t need to love me
When we can’t be together
Please…
I want you to be happy
To move on with your life
But knowing you’re with her
Just drives me insane
Oh, god…
I want you to stop hurting
But love knowing you’re in pain
I can’t be satisfied
Unless you’re suffering like me
I’m not worth it…
I’ve succeeded, endured
Overcome all the odds
Still I feel worthless
Like I’ve struggled for nothing
Why…
I deserve to suffer
To be hated, not loved
Why won’t you hate me?
It seems so much easier
Destroy me…
I’m beautiful and desirable
No one could want me
They treat me like shit
Now it’s my turn
Just leave…
I want to be alone
To make myself stronger
Prove that I don’t need anyone
No one beside me
But I do…
Someone to love me
Someone to be there
Someone to hold me
Someone to care
Everything I’ve ever wanted
…but I don’t…
I want to belong to you
Please hate me
Because I love you
Don’t want to
And you will in the end.